College is for Suckers

by Tim Goodwin

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released January 13, 2016

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Track Name: Until We Meet Again
Woke up at 2 a.m. last night
Threw up a burger and some fries
I guess it's not so bad
I guess I didn't die

The more things change the more they stay the same
The more I realize I never got to say:

Goodbye
Good night
One day I'll see you again
But I guess for now this is

Goodbye, all my friends
One day we will meet again
But until that comes true
Know that I always loved you

Until we meet again

Walked home all alone in the dark
Surrounded by my fears
And selfish need
To feel accepted

Singing to myself when I'm all alone
Singing to no one just to make this feel like home

Goodbye
Good night
One day I'll see you again
But I guess for now this is

Goodbye, all my friends
One day we will meet again
But until that comes true
Know that I always loved you

Until we meet again
Track Name: Nothing Really Makes Sense Anymore
Yesterday I had a dream
It didn't really make much sense to me
Nothing really does anymore
So I wake up and I get up and I move on
So I wake up and get up and move on

Of course he has his friends
and he has got a home
But in his dreams he finds himself alone
With nothing but his hopes and memories
The only things that he can call his own

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
Just close your eyes and fade into the night
(forever)

She comes home alone
To rest her tired eyes
She's tired of her eyes telling her lies
So she tries to dream, but it's a restless sleep
Because she didn't even say goodbye

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
Just close your eyes and fade into the night
(forever)

An old man lies in bed
More tired than he seems
But happily surrounded by family
Before he closes his eyes for the final sleep
He tells me "Son, don't ever forget your dreams"
Track Name: Black Holes and Couches
It's getting hard to write
all the words just seem so trite
My conscience can't decide:
Am I wrong or am I right?

Words flow from my mouth
like the water from a spout
All these feelings tumbling out
I saved your spot here on the couch

Oh, I know what it's like
to be all alone
Yes, that feeling inside
pulls like a black hole

Gravity of the situation seeps in
I regret never letting myself win

Drain the life force from my mind
Every second's wasted time
Losing myself in my rhymes
Still I don't feel alive

Will I ever let this go?
Just, please, next time let me know
If you have to miss my show -
it's okay; I won't lose hope

Oh, I know what it's like
to be all alone
Yes, that feeling inside
pulls like a black hole

Gravity of the situation seeps in
I regret never letting myself win
Track Name: Self-Doubt in California
Sometimes it feels like my songs
don't mean a damn thing
I'm just putting words to paper
But it helps me cope when I've got songs to sing
and I've been abandoned by everything

So here I strum some chords
Try to make some rhyming words
Shutting out the world again
Staying up all night just to get this right
So I can finally get some good sleep

When everything feels wrong
That's when I need these songs
I know I won't be alone for too long
As long as you'll listen to my songs

Just me and my guitar
Underneath some stars
An audience of only one
and she's half asleep while I softly strum
and sing about where I came from

When everything feels wrong
That's when I need these songs
I know I won't be alone for too long
As long as you'll listen to my songs

Sometimes it feels like my songs
aren't worth a damn thing
and I'll admit it: I can't really sing.
But my words are true and I'll see it through
and maybe someday you will too
Track Name: Doped Up, Numbed Down
I'm doped up, numbed down
Skeletal hands reach out
Grasping for straws thinner than
needles in a haystack

Wake late, stay late
no one ever gets paid
crawling up the staircase
when I'm trampled by the crowd

Oh, I know
that you asked me to leave you alone
No one knows
what to do with these lives that we own
Don't bemoan
the circumstances that have led you to grow
Take it slow
Make sure that you don't lose control

Senses failing
Foundation of the structure
crumbling to pieces
all that's left is a facade

Bills I'm not paying,
relying on karma
to make good on the loans
that I've been gaining interest on

Oh, I know
that you asked me to leave you alone
No one knows
what to do with these lives that we own
Don't bemoan
the circumstances that have led you to grow
Take it slow
Make sure that you don't lose control

Lonely oak trees
parading down the palisade
inviting weary travelers
to rest beneath their limbs

Leaves descending
Traveling the breezes
Remind us at the end of every summer
there always is a fall
Track Name: Instant Mud
I've had a rough couple of months
I've been shot, I've been stabbed
I've been looking for someone to trust
Now all I'm left with is dirt
Just add some water
and now you have made instant mud
it's more than you started with

Open your eyes and look up to the stars
I know you can see them, wherever you are
If you look back
Don't ever regret
the hard times; they come and they go, but they pass
Don't let your stress rise to critical mass
Let it all out
Let yourself shout "enough!"

Well, all my ghosts walk the earth
One's riding shotgun, the others are looking for work
it's hard to find work when you're dead
So don't go die on me
Just let me know where you are
I promise I'll come pick you up

Open your eyes and look up to the stars
I know you can see them, wherever you are
If you look back
Don't ever regret
the hard times; they come and they go, but they pass
Don't let your stress rise to critical mass
Let it all out
Let yourself shout "enough!"

Now I'm alone in the rain
Shivering cold, soaked, waiting on one little call
One little call could bring hope
Even if hope leaves, I'll never be left by the rain:
Rain and dirt make instant mud

Open your eyes and look up to the stars
I know you can see them, wherever you are
If you look back
Don't ever regret
the hard times; they come and they go, but they pass
Don't let your stress rise to critical mass
Let it all out
Let yourself shout "enough!"
Track Name: Mad as Hell
I don't have to tell you things are bad.
Everybody knows things are bad.
It's a depression.

Everybody's out of work or scared of losing their job.
The dollar buys a nickel's worth.
Banks are going bust. Shopkeepers keep a gun under the counter.

Punks are running wild in the street and there's nobody anywhere who seems to know what to do, and there's no end to it.

We know the air is unfit to breathe and our food is unfit to eat,
and we sit watching our TVs while some local newscaster tells us that today we had fifteen homicides and sixty-three violent crimes, as if that's the way it's supposed to be.

We know things are bad - worse than bad.
They're crazy. It's like everything everywhere is going crazy, so we don't go out anymore.

We sit in the house, and slowly the world we are living in is getting smaller, and all we say is: "Please, at least leave us alone in our living rooms. Let me have my toaster and my TV and my steel-belted radials and I won't say anything. Just leave us alone."

Well, I'm not gonna leave you alone.

I want you to get mad!

I don't want you to protest. I don't want you to riot. I don't want you to write to your congressman, because I wouldn't know what to tell you to write. I don't know what to do about the depression and the inflation and the Russians and the crime in the street. All I know is that first you've got to get mad!

You've got to say: "I'm a human being, goddammit! My life has value!"

So, I want you to get up now.
I want all of you to get up out of your chairs.
I want you to get up right now and go to the window, open it, and stick your head out, and yell:

"I'm as mad as hell, and I'm not gonna take this anymore!"

I want you to get up right now. Sit up. Go to your windows. Open them and stick your head out and yell - "I'm as mad as hell and I'm not gonna take this anymore!"

Then we'll figure out what to do about the depression and the inflation and the oil crisis. But first, get up out of your chairs, open the window, stick your head out, and yell, and say it: "I'm as mad as hell, and I'm not gonna take this anymore!"
Track Name: Otterpops in the Icebox
(cover of Walter Mitty and His Makeshift Orchestra)

I just watched the new for fifteen minutes
and goddamn, am I depressed
I just spent an hour on fucking Facebook
until I realized I couldn't care less
and I keep fighting who we are,
who we've been, we've become
I can't take it
a Sinatra song
and I'm bleeding nostalgia again
My role says I should sit up and take it
But something tells me I should do my best to fight it -
Oh, fuck.

And I just spent an hour on the fifty-five
'cuz Shelby-fucking-Jacobson was on my mind
Try to convince her I'm a simple and happy guy
But I just came off as the nervous and neurotic type
Something's wrong my dear
When I don't know if I'll stand here in one year
and I keep having all these thoughts of nihilism
How truth is only relevant
Now I can barely brush my fucking teeth

And I'm from southern California
where we say words like 'gay'
and I don't mean to offend,
it's just the way I was raised
And I'm always being hunted
taking stabs for who I am
and I would say that I don't care
but I'm losing my friends
Being force-fed what to believe in
Like politics and horoscopes
and cliche definitions of success

(They're) telling me my time's up
A big choice
The four-year-old inside of me
just wants to go out and play
Through all of this bullshit
I just wish that someone would say:

"Come a little closer, we've got
otterpops in the icebox, we've got
milk and cookies by the TV
to make you feel alright"
Track Name: College is for Suckers (And I'm One of Them)
I'm writing up an essay on the culture of my youth
But I still can't find the words to say, to convey to you the truth
My sense of poetry, my lyrics have all but abandoned me
Now there's nothing left to lose
Nothing except you

Empty lines of notebook paper march across my desk
All my homework piles up, but I seem to care less and less
I long for immediate returns to quench my ambitious thirst
Where is my motivation?
Won't get out of bed today

College is for suckers and I'm one of them
College is for suckers and I'm one of them
I won't pretend to be content, I'll be honest:
College is for suckers and I'm one of them
Track Name: Explosives 101
You say that you don't mean it
But you never meant a thing
You say you've lost your appetite
You've lost your will to sing

You bow your head and turn your cheek
But won't give me the chance to speak
Your loyalty to me is lies
Now bow down to your king

I try to make sense of it all
and save us from the fall
Where did we go wrong?
I'm exploding like a bomb

Every single sunset
I look out to the west
But only in my deepest dreams
Do I ever find rest

You and I, one and all
will find our fates, big or small
the path your walked is always right
if you have tried your best

I try to make sense of it all
and save us from the fall
Where did we go wrong?
I'm exploding like a bomb

We will fall
if we don't find ourselves in time
Track Name: Release
Can't sleep most nights
Deprived of sight
Turn out the lights;
it's still not as dark
as the corners
of my mind

Hold me close
Don't let go
Release

The storm draws close
Perspective narrows
These prison bars are
made of memories
and thoughts of
all I've lost

Hold me close
Don't let go
Release

Release
all you have
Track Name: New Year, Fresh Start
Another year, another night
with nothing to show
Another day, another dollar
still my change comes up short
It's not even midnight
but I've said my goodbyes
Maybe next year I'll keep
all of my promises

I missed the turn, I try to swerve
but I fall flat on my face
Shame and embarrassment
but cradled by the pavement's embrace
And it's late, and I'm tired
and I've been trying so hard
not to seem like inside
I'm really falling apart

Don't let me go to sleep
I've got promises to keep
This year I won't be weak
Sing this song on repeat

This year will be better
I promise

Get up and go outside
Go on and live your life
Make today turn out alright
Before the end of the night